Tuesday, November 23, 2021

Nymph's Turmoil

Life is tough.

An endless struggle 
Between expecting and accepting. 
Who am I becoming in this floating mass of the human race? 

I'm just trying to survive, a nymph among men, a fey who was lost in her own dreams. I want to be accepted but I'm not like all the others in this world. My difference is my blessing.  My difference is my curse. 

I want my life to be beautiful. But I don't fit traditional standards of a beautiful person. I am unique,  and that makes me both loved and hated, judged and berated and I'm screaming inside half the time because why is my life so awful that it pushes people away?

I think I am unique.  I think I am beautiful. I love the person I have moulded myself into. But by traditional standards,  I am the monster they fear and run from. I am the beast they cannot control. 

I am nymph. Loved and hated for the very core of my nature. I am nymph. Just accept me as I am.